4th of July 2009

4th of July sounds like some independance day, for me is the day I finally move out from my house and starts a new life "alone". I am really grateful and thankful for having good friends around, that offer me helps and supports. The only thing I grab from my house is my Inspiron 9400 laptop and the 1 TB external harddisk, cash and some company stuff. Other than that, just like my friend said, "two hands empty empty" and "two sleeves clear wind". So everything has to start from scratch.

Thanks to Mista Kai for your transport from my house to get Nick all the way to KL and then from KL all the way to Batu Tiga and then from Batu tiga with nick back to his working place again. I owe you one. Thanks for Nic for his Kia Spectra, really grateful enough that, after leaving home without house keys, car keys and even clothes I manage to have a spare car from my friend in such a short time. Really thank God for that.

And also thanks for Tan hui Chia, my friend in private piano teaching centre allows me to stay in her rented house and so happen it has one empty room there. I am really grateful that, I can move in on saturday itself. Even though we don't talk much and we don't really know each other that well, I guess is really nice to have you as friend.

After getting all the stuff, the night time and also 5th July I have been busy shopping around and then setting up my basic clothings and some basic necessities. Thanks to Siew siew for all your time and energy, I know what happened to me and between my family have given you emotional and mental pressured. I pray that you will be able to handle it well. I know these 2 days you must be very tired thinking alot of stuff and also shopping around with me.

I promise you, Siew Siew, in the future, no matter what happened, I would do the same for you to support you back. Thanks for the pants you bought me is really nice and comfortable:P Again just wanna thank you for your support when this is the toughest time in my life when I lost most of the thing in just one morning and start to setup all the basic stuff again. You will always be in my heart. And remember you are always kind hearted, nice and playful girl.

May be things have happened very fast, aggressive and drastic in our life for past 1 month. No matter how I will try my best to maintain our relationship. In my life, you are the first girl who gave me such passion, courage and perseverance to go through this tough situation. Fate has brought us together, and then my decision has brought us closer. Now is the time for endurance and perseverance, we got to maintain the sparks and passion so that the fire can burn longer and longer. I just want to tell you that I love you deep from my heart.

Thanks to shaun for his financial and moral support, thanks to brother lee lee who tried to source a house for me but failed:P and thanks for her moral support. Thanks for people who gives me emotional and mental support throughou this time. Thanks for my brother for offering his kelisa.

5th July night, I met with Jacqualine and chin tek, for some consultation and some idea on how to handle this situation and how can we handle our emotion and mental so that we don't blame ourselves and release us from feeling guilty. Sorry for putting you (Siew Siew) in this situation, is not your fault, is just happen that, things get triggered like that, sorry to involve you as a victim. Thanks for the curry fish head meal tonight Jacq, thanks for your advise and prayer. You have been very helpful to me all the time even your wedding doesn't offer us nice food:P LOL, sorry about that. I hope that God will bless you Jacq and Chin Tek with fruitful life and abundant happiness.

New life just begins, and there is more work to be done especially in my business and software development, May God bless my business grows well, and May God bless all those who helps, and grant peace and safety to my mom, and brother. May God bless Siew siew with abundant happiness. May all of us be granted the strenght and wisdom and perseverance to go through all the hardship.

Definition of love

I know I am celuping this from bible, but I find it true and meaningful. If you can achieve this kind of love you might truly, deeply, and madly in love with someone. LOL

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If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

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