Dark Road to Bright Path

Today, as promised, I travel to mentakab for official and unofficial business hahaha. The most important thing is not about the business. But is the winding road travelling from gombak to mentakab. And of course some kampung road. It really brought back many of olden days memories.

I can't remember the exact day that I travel to mentakab to meet Aunty K and brother LL. But tracking back to my project proposal, I created the document roughly at July 2005, And meeting them at august 2005. I guess it was a good experience that bunch of us traveling from KL to mentakab. I still remember I have to wake up about 5am and travel to klang and fetch one of my partner then from there Using Kesas flying car all the way to mentakab. The first time we were travelling on the winding road is really exciting and no one dares to drive fast, may be maximum at 90km/h. After going there to support many times, the driving skills go through some refinement and then gradually I can achive top speed like 150km/h on the speed trap meter.

So first day is nothing much, meet up, meeting, talk some crap, and the only question I remember was "brother" Lee asking us, what if after 1 or 2 years the company chap lap, how are we going to support her? I guess my question is "If you continue to pay us the "expensive" maintenance per year we should not run out of business". and now I remember why my business didn't do well hahaahhaha. What happened in the middle and implementation of the project and so on really not important.

So after 1 or 2 years, the partners in my company having some argument and quarrel, due to business problem, profit sharing and so on. I guess no one wants it that way, just we are too young and not mature enough to handle certain problems, we never have good foresight for certain issues, we never have black and white too. Thus at the end we got to strike offfff the business. Not chap lap like "brother" Lee said lar. But more or less same situation but different status.

As today I was travelling back from mentakab after some verocious Dinner at old town kopitiam (but now at 12.35am I am feeling hungry again), is about 8.00pm and the sky started to rain. It is the first time I drive with fear and exciting, because is really hard to see the road with such lighting and the rain is heavy. You know kampung road, there are no lampost and even it is the light is most probably not powerful enough to light up the road as the rain getting heavier. Because I have to drive REALLY Slow like 60 or 70 which normally I don't, I started to think back about Jess, Rachel, another brother alex Lee, who might be also in "trouble" situation.

To "Brother" Jess,
As you told me "isn't it good if human can be like laptop get reformated and restart everything? so i can forget all the past?"

I know you are in stress mood, and may be you can't find the solution or etc. As today I travel down the dark kampung road, I feel the same fear as you, even these few years, I have been going ups and down, getting big payroll projects, getting out of business, because of business we lost friend (which i think is regretable), getting sued, getting into dilemma, having dream like taking chair and whacking your boss, and so on. Again I would say, all this pain, struggle, is part of the melodies of life. It serves as refinement for me. Because of my partners, i get to know "brother"Lee, because of another business failure I get to know brother alex lee, and because of drinking kaki like alex lee I get to know "brother" Jess.

And the rain is still heavy, some how I know is raining season, I wanted to stop my car and wait for it to stop, but then as mariah carey always sings, I can make it through the rain. So I have faith , I know I will reach the lamp posted high way and I will reach the light. It is relieved when I reach the highway tolls there is light everywhere and things are clear, but then soon when you go on karak highway everything is even darker, but you have wider roads. But as usual, I can't stop, Just like What I have told you before. "The past might have defined your present, but don't let it control your future". Try not to look backward too much, step forward, even is crawling is slow, you will reach the destination, somewhere you are familiar somewhere that has light that you are comfortable to live on and move on or even speed. The winding roads, the rain, the dark cloud, will soon pass away.

May be some of the past are too pain to handle now, but I never recommend to reformat even to laptop or pc. why? because to rebuild the foundation is tedious, to reinstall, to configure, is not easy though. Especially in life, we might hate many in our past, like both "brother" lee and I have bad experience with J, but those experience has really taught us many things. Pain, fear, suffering might be destructive for our life, but yet we have the choice to turn those experience become a constructive refinement and becomes a sharing to others who needs help in future.

So don't get reformatted, our memories are precious, that's why we have many backup solution nowadays which offer up to 1TB just to keep precious memories. Bad or good memories do not matters. But how you treat those memories and reuse it, and refine it to become more powerful experience and skills points (must read previous post).

Really hope, all the "brothers" and brothers will get a good solution and get to the bright path soon. Free up your minds, plan ahead , plan for changes, plan plan plan plan...... action action action. Like kira yamato said "first you decide, then you go through". And also think about a reason to FIGHT.


HAVE FAITH, my "brothers"!.