Game Review - Battle field Bad Company 2

Being awhile since I have played battlefield 1 and 2. I guess it is a really nice game to play especially the early days of capture the flag and also camping to take out enemies using sniper.
While many other impressive title such as Call of Duty and Medal of honor may rival this BFBC2 title. This game is short I guess nowadays FPS is not that long since main focus has greatly concentrated on multiplay and graphics. I finished the game on hard mode and not too challenging I would say.

Gameplay: 8/10
It is a really nice FPS war game. Especially most of the stuff are destructible. And this make tanks and RPG much more deadlier than before. But Perhaps the destructible feature, the damage of grenade and RPG is reduced compare to Call of Duty. I guess COD is just way too realistic that when you get hit with 2 to 3 bullets you will be dead. Of course COD has larger team and more realistic battle formation. But for BF2 I guess is more to heroic theme and more like left 4 dead kind of game play. In single play, all your team mate can't die no matter what kind of bullet they take in their head. This make them a very good cannon fodder. Your teammate can simply rush in and clear of the enemy while you are sniping from behind. This game doesnt' have prone position like COD where you can camp and snipe. Other than this, everything is just nice to have. Because I play this game on hard mode, and there is no save game you can have manually, other than auto save, some of the mission is really annoying when you get reloaded in the enemy line of fire.

Storyline:7/10
I don't know much about the 4 soldiers background, but the story definitely fit the title well (bad company). Your team mate sometimes help you some times they don't, you can't really give them direct order other than you follow them or they follow you. {spoiler} The story starts off with japan building some kind of scalar weapon,I guess is just some EMP pulse to disable all those tech gadget in 1943+. At the beginning you are playing as another guy, which lead a strike team into japan to rescue some scientist. At the end of the mission either you are KIA or MIA. Then it goes back to presence day that bad company has to be a special operation to lead a team to go to many places to find this emp bomb. It has many turn and twist here and there. It tells you about the terrors of war.

Graphics:9/10
the graphics is astonishing, just like you were at the war zone. The explosion of tank shell, RPG and oil tank really gives gamers some real fireworks. Texture and details of the scene are as good as real. If gamers have a high end machine, definitely the game play will be more intense.
The bullets and gun fire are very well visualized too. The physic engine too are very well designed that rubbles, rag dolls and shots are perfectly simulated in game. If gamers want to know how much the physic engine has improve, try playing game like Counter strike and quake4. I know is old game with old technology, but that shows how much 3D FPS games have really improved since last decade.

Sound: 8/10
Even using a laptop speaker, the sound effect is really vivid. I can still remember how it sounds like when the bullet is flying pass me or hitting my head ( in game). If you have full 3D surround sound system, players will not be able to differentiate whether is real or computer generated. there is not much music in this game. Perhaps they should have some place for it during certain intermission.

AI: 8/10
I am playing on hard mode, the AI is shrewd and will always aim for me. No matter where I am hiding they seem to know my whereabout and shoot me from far. I guess there is how the game mechanics work. No doubt their AI prove to be challenging, and sometimes even camping proves to be a challenge especially to RPG and tanks. They will tear down the blockign obstacles. I guess the combination of RPG and MG really made player life tougher. AI really changes everytime you reload the game. This gives the game more replay value.

overall: 8.5/10
Is really a great game, I guess FPS play should try this game no matter what. Everything fits nice in bad company. Especially the storyline dialog and speech are well done to express their personal feeling and obligation about the mission they are going to carry out. Even then the story shows some moral value on friendship and patriotisme.

Game Review - Command & Conquer 4 Tiberian Twilight

Come to think of it command and conquer series has been around for 14 years. Or Perhaps 15 years, since it came out at 1995. The very first C&C series consists of 2 CDs. Back then 2 CDs game is really huge size, since our harddisk is only 420 MB, is lesser than today pendrive. Most of the PC that time is 486-DX2 66. Of course the clock speed is getting faster and faster. After that C&C progress with tiberian sun, tiberium wars and last final episode C&C tiberian twilight. As metioned by EA, they will sum up everything and tell about origin of Kane and also who is kane? But I guess is really a great disappointment that non of these being told.

C&C4 stories continue with Kane using one of the implanted cyborg previously was name LEGION to active the Scrin tower. As player remember the tacitus which is recovered by Kane in the last mission on Kane Wrath is some how fused with the (player) in C&C4 as commander. The story is nothing great and interesting. It is like extended the story from C&C3 where he walks into SCRIN tower and the screen turns white. But this time with more detailed and elaboration on how he activated the tower. This time, the player ( command) character has a wife. If you play GDI the wife died in early mission. For NOD some how she survives.

Gameplay: 6/10

I think the gameplay is totally different from previous C&C, now is more mobile, no resource gathering, everything is depends on the command point you have. Good or bad. But for C&C player i think is a really annoying gameplay. But for strategy player who play Warhammer 40k I think is not too bad, and I should say the game play is quite easy. Any how there is not much strategy that can involve here (singleplay).

You have offensive, defensive and support class. Defensive class has building like towers and all sort of stuff. You have ion canon too. But who will build such structure and camp around when you only have the limit of 60 commands point ? or lesser. Is not 60 units, but 60 command points that each engineers will consume 3. Basically the title should not be called command and conquer, since you can't have massive armies and units, and you cannot even have camping tactics like in C&C generals? Is just like RPG, you try to make units level ups and become heroes. But the problems in C&C4 doesn't have any hero unit? Compare to Warhammer 40k dawn of wars 2, this game is just too less features. It has many units, but then even tier 2 and tier 1 units are sufficient to deal out damage why bother for tier 3?

Basically you build up varies of units that can deal damage to heavy, light and medium armors and get a few engineers (for offensive class). For me I used offensive always, and have my crawler walk together. with the engineer around, you can use your crawler to tank and fix it up later. More or less is really like RPG, got to be so tactical.

Storyline:2/10?

What can I say about C&C 4? basically it just the drill down detailed of having LEGION (player/command) to activate the Scrin Portal. Can't they just put this campaign mission into C&C 4? and they have to make it into 9 super short missions for each side? They should have concluded this in Kane's wrath when lastly he combines Tacitus and LEGION. But EA just wanna drag on to make C&C4. and said all of Kane information will be reveal? What is there to be revealed? Everything is almost the same, but just player is given a wife LOL. I can even write up a better story ? huh? And there is not much background development for each of the characters. None.. If this is RPG, the character development should be intense. damn this is worse than Supreme commander 2

Graphics:5/10

What can I say? This is almost like Tiberium wars. or Red alert 3. Things just not too realistic. Whenever reaper get shot by mastadon (Mammoth tank MK2 railgun) it just jumps up and down then died. I am not sure whether is my PC problem or other reason. But I can play it smoother than Supreme commander 2. No big deal. Graphics just entry level nothing great I should say.

Sound:5/10

The music and everything is just so average, I can barely remember how it is sounds after finishing all the campaign in less than 1 day for both sides. where is hell march?

AI: 5/10

AI is quite brainless, since there is not much strategy you can employ with 60 commands points, the most is they are sending mostly 5 units against your group of units. And those units are just giving you experience points for you to level up your Units. Other than that I got nothing to say. Old AI is much more powerful.

Units:8/10

Yea it features more than 60 units, with different classes and different units. If EA is going to make this a tactical game I guess it will be really good. The reason is simple, just get some idea from final fantasy tactics and also shattered galaxy. Incorporated point and tech trees and make leveling up worth. And also make individual units leveling system more profound and allows greater customizability in every units based on general (command's) level and also job specialization such as offend, support, defend, stealth, assassin, rush, turtle, high tech and so on! And also allow level up to have stats point for general to distribute into different stats such as technological level (higher unlock better weapon , armor, features of each units), class point (unlock better units and higher class), customization point ( unlock more powerful customization).

Overall:5.2/10

I am really upset with EA and C&C4. C&C started so good by westwood studio, I really didn't expect it will have such a bad ending that Kane just step inside the Scrin Portal and that is! Ascension is REAL!. And whatever is it, perhaps they will make another good C&C good in RPG or tactical style. Other than that, if you wanna know the story of C&C4 , just go to youtube.com and search for tiberian twilight. Everything is there, and the story sucks big time. Player is awakened, and get implanted with tacitus and I assumed you are legion, and then you just go through series of stupid battle in either kill Kane or help Kane to get into portal but killing gideon and capturing TCN. Sigh.. GDI mission is so stupid because GDI has been trying to kill Kane since C&C1, but failed big time. Even in point blank C&C tiberian sun, Kane was stabbed by never died. cause Cabal clone him again LOL!. What a great story. sigh.. Seriously the storyline in tiberian sun is even better than C&C4.

Recap of 2009 - MAR episode

I guess nothing much happen in March of 2009. Because just after chinese new year. Not much of mood to work too. Then I get news that Yikit is going to marry. Hmm Yee kit was born in september if I am not mistaken. She is virgo. Not really compatible with my horoscope LOL. And more to that she is dog in chinese horoscope. and not that compatible with me also. But whatever superstitious or not, she is married now.

Yea I remember going to her house and talked to her mom and chit chat with them. We are really good friend. I remember treating her to eat siiiii....... ham also. LOL If you speak it in cantonese slowly it sounds like I am treating her to eat shit........ hamm... hahahhaha. Yea she is talkative girl, I like talkative girl. But then because her fate is working life, work day and night LOL. But still not bad, I guess she just conceive a baby boy or baby girl. Not really sure. Still working in nitto denko if I am not mistaken. But then that time I met her, both of us are really busy busy and busy. Usually she didn't pick up my call. I guess fate never bring us together eh?

Well. Wish her have a very happy life. and white hair till old with her husband lor. Her husband is a good guy can see from picture. Very guai chai and very "smooth" type haha. Not like Mr. Joke, parents will say he got CB face LOL. No one likes him cause ugly face:P

Their wedding album, I took it with my camera phone haha. Both of them leng chai leng lui. So compatible.

Whole family photo taking session. I just remember that yellow shirt uncle has really lots of stuff to talk. He sings well too. but don't know why he sings beyond song in her wedding haha

Is Yeekit and the husband. So matching!

Recap of 2009 - FEB episode

Here comes February. I remember I get a new camera phone at this time. Is the samsung I8510i. Is also known as the Innov8. Because that time I was watching gundam 00. There is bunch of fellows call themselves the innovator. That's I go get the phone. Nahh.. is actually it has 8 megapixel camera. All the picture taken from now on is using my new samsung phone. Yea till now it works well.

I remember somewhere in the month, we went to somewhere kampung teluk something or tanjong something LOL. Jason and Elmen were with me that time. Talking about some project. But end up nothing great.

It was the opening for Medklenn skin care product. I am not sure what janice is doing now. Been calling her for awhile, and she is super damn busy. LOL! Other than that, I guess she forgets to renew her domain name and not even complete her internal software system yet. She must be damn busy closing sales. I guess that's her expertise haha.

I think that's the usual place I hang out with Alex Lee, you can find his picture else where in this post. That place is called Samantha. in Uptown. I was wondering Rachel still work there. Long time I never pick up her call. She sells me cheap hard liquor. May be jatuh lori.?

Hmm right hand side we have our beloved Fat God. He helps me mom alot and guided her since she was 33 I remember. Or somewhere there. Many people went there to acquire 4 digits number. Because Fat God said I have good career so I don't really have gambling luck. The 4 digits given by HIM is no miss one. I remember that time he gave me the 4 digits I bought it and kena like RM 1k+. Because is just RM 10 for starter. so is about RM 1k. I didn't gamble big cause not that greedy lor.

We have shaun at the left picture and jason on the right hand side. Both also close friend to me.

Yea and I don't know why Mr. Joke has to pretend to become Jason and talks to BSS. I guess it is really a joke for him to do such childish stuff. I am not sure why such a destructive person can be born into the world like Mr. Joke. Trying to blame others, criticize other people action, and judging people with his own standard LOL. Perhaps himself has really no problem, but the one who gave birth to him, sigh what a joke. Sad case.

WAO!!, I look so lat and also so leh feh that time. I guess I did change alot since that time. Thanks to BSS, who transform me. Hmm I wear a different watch too. Different hair style and different way of eating too? Anyone?

Here is Esolid MD, Lennie Chong. She manages her company quite well, every year her Solid Edge gets double of the sales. Hope this year is triple. SO can beat the shit out of... errr can't mention name. Later get sued again.

This guy is from ONDE. Hmm he is one of the decision maker in ONDE, but then we can't really get the project. I think bad luck LOL!

Is our leng lui Sales & marketing girl - Hanna Rose. I guess that time we were with Lennie to discuss about ONDE project. But failed.

Who else you think this is? Alex Lee lor. Another Brother in Beer LOL. not brother in christ or brother in law. Brother in Beer. Cause this kaki botol without drinking sure like wanna die one. The picture he took also must have beer inside. Alex sure misses Samantha, after 5 and also San Diego!

Yea, this is Elmen, he was working with us for awhile before going to RCE. I guess small company does not suit him well. Really feel happy for him now, where by he has many subordinate to work with.

Just wrap up my february chapter.

Recap of 2009 - JAN episode

Wao is already March 2010. I still didn't do any recap writing for my previous year. Nothing much happen in Jan 2010 except for daily life and daily works. I guess not much of work too since market being quite slow. Hmm going for meetings and then go to few places to have some makan makan. Life is weird eh, just few months back Fat God was telling me about I am getting married soon. Yeah, now is 2010 I guess I will be getting married soon:P

Well Look at the pub in cheras business center. YEa I visit lots of pub, I guess that time drinking was still my past time LOL!.

My favourite sashimi!. I have this with Cat I guess. somewhere in old klang road near alken there. Quite expensive stuff LOL!

Lastly we have some empty plates of malay food. I guess we have this in northern region with Mr. Loh and esolid fellow.

Nothing much really happen in January. Life is still damn dull. cause BSS not yet there for me LOL!

Game Review - Battle field bad company 2

Just get a copy of BFBC2 today. Play 2 rounds of it on hard difficulty. I think is not that hard compare to COD (call of duty). Reason is it can get hit by more bullet, I guess is less realistic compare to COD. Perhaps it will be too difficult to play when it gets too realistic.

One of the best thing in this game is nearly everything is destructible. This make the tanks, grenade and RPG are really powerful. It can blow up the building you are hiding inside. So camping is no longer a better reason for it. The only thing lacking in BF is you can't have prone position. I kind a like it in COD when you are playing sniper in grass land. No one can even see where you are shooting from except showing a red dot on radar. Nonetheless both COD and BF is nice game to have. Just started playing it, won't have much time to finish cause rushing for project.

Time for project and work again!

Game Review - Supreme Commander 2

Yea my life is damn busy, but why I still have time for games? I guess supreme commander 2 is really a short game for strategy player like me. Supreme commander is from the same creator as total annihilation best strategy game of all time even rank better than Starcraft. Yea no doubt is Chris Taylor, who brought us Total annihilation and Supreme commander. For me both the title is really good strategy game. Whoever like strategy game should not miss it. This time the publisher is Square Enix, I like Square Final fantasy series. Not sure when I gonna have time for FF13.

Graphics: 8/10

I guess for graphics, there is not much of stunning changes since Supreme Commander 1. Other than much better explosion and better laser and shielding visualization. I think there is not much to mention. But to compare with Supreme Commander 1, the graphics engine gets improvement and optimization. So now it can run on lower spec machine which has lower end graphic cards. Nonetheless the graphics in battlefield is quite stunning already compare to other strategy title. But there are still rooms for improvement.

General Gameplay: 7/10

Compare to Supreme commander and total annihilation, the only difference now is there is no tier 1 to tier 3 buildings and unit. It has a research technology tree. Which I find it quite annoying. Perhaps Supreme commander is trying to attract more casual player rather than hardcore player like us. Compare to blizzard title, C&C (except general) and westwood title (other than dune) there are really not much strategy game has a tech tree. I mean even slower pace settle will not have such a tech tree which I find it not suitable for heating and high pace battle for Supreme commander. For supreme commander, the focus should be always on battle field. Large scale, with lot's of explosion, multiple squadron of bombers in the air. when you unlock mass converter you will become God like, you just have to build up energy generator to get you mass. And those mass converter are nothing good. Every 1000 energy is 200 Mass, you can get like 100+ energy per second compare to mass that might only have 10 to 15 + per second on certain map. And each generator is so cheap to build compare to mass converter. In skirmish I always use mass converter to get good resource.

Each faction has 6 missions total of 18 mission. But most of the time, each mission will take 30 minutes to finish. So the game will only last you 9 hours to maximum 18 hours. Which about 1 to 2 days you can finish everything plus some skirmish with dumb AI even on hard difficulty.

Unit: 6/10

I find that Supreme commander 1 is much more fun than this title. Now it has lesser units, it has lesser variety of units between faction too. You have couple of experimental which is really effective I would say. The unit between faction more or less are the same, especially towers have land, anti air and torpedo launcher. It doesn't have the fun of tier 1 to 3. Even for air units, the research tree for air unit is always fighter, bomber which is available in the early game, then comes to gunship, transport ship and later some of the experimental units like soul ripper for cybran. The reason without the tier 1 to tier 3 units are simple, in battle you don't have anymore cannon fodder. I remember in supreme commander, you can have a squadron of 8 to 10 tier 1 fighter or gunship as cannon fodder to protect 1 or 2 tier 3 tactical/strategic bomber. For supreme commander 2, unit combination is quite less. Supreme commander 2 is becoming less tactical when you are jus tgoing to mass tank, or missile launcher. Players don't have sniper bots, for damage, tanker unit with shield. Most of the land units for each faction is really almost the same.

Artificial Intelligence: 5/10

The AI for HARD is really easy compare to supreme commander or even total annihilation. Or any other strategy game out there. When the first time I was playing 3v3 with all hard AI. I find it the AI is really slow in building. There are not in turtle mode. The only factory they have is land factory and bunch of tanks. Other than that they have no anti air at all. Even when I have like 10 fighter/bomber (cybran gemini), I go for some exploration, I find that opponent has only a single anti air turret. Straight away I blow up the anti air turret and wreck havoc to the enemy base. After that I just target the commander and send him to destruction. The 3 vs 3 is just too easy. And enemy can't even send tanks or any units near my base. Is not like Supreme commander 1, you will see squadron of tanks and air unit with combination of bombers and fighters come swarming your base. So later I try something harder on 1 Vs 3 computers. The AI still sucks. I cannot imagine that when I finished research everything and is still camping they AI is only 1/3 of total research. And by the time I already have long range artillery bombarding their base. The only AI which prove to be more competence is illuminate that build some nuke to nuke my base. But is just too bad, I have already 6 soul rippers and 4 proto brain that easily take out its whole base. As I remember, in supreme commander 1, level 3 tower will take out your experimental unit like flies too.

Music and sound effect:7/10

What I can say is I still prefer total annihilation music. It really brings you into the intense battle which is raging between all the players. Even after like 10 years, I still remember the music when we start the battle. Sigh just about few days after I play supreme commander 2, I can't even remember how the music like. Just the sound effect is great on big speakers and it will be really stunning to have it as battlefield.

Storyline:6/10

This time supreme commander 2 focus on individual character rather than large scale faction wars. But I guess the script writer is not really good on character development. I have not seen such a bad story development even in Red alert 3. The wars and the character development doesn't fit well because supreme commander is suppose to focus on large scale warfare not like warcraft style with hero RPG elements. Or you will have C&C style scenario mission like protect some building, capture something, or destroy some units. In the whole supreme commander 2 is pretty easy you just destroy all your enemy. And all those optional objectives are really useless and give you nothing. Strategy game with character story telling so far the best is warcraft 3 with its expansion, because it has heroes and is very well suited to blend in their story. For C&C title, because the war is always talking about Nod, Cane and Tiberian, that's why people play the game even thought its game play sucks but players still wanna know the story. Just like everyone is expecting C&C4 to get the conclusion of the whole tiberian series. Because supreme commander has never talk about in depth any characters or their story, and mostly we only see them talking on battlefield with anger, or Dr. Brackman talking like philosopher even he said he is scientist and etc. Nothing much about their background. Now they wanna focus on character story telling. Is really a great disappointment. I rather they focus on battle field scenary and terrain that talk about the battle at different planet, which will give more insight how humanity has developed through the thousand years. Just like the last stage of Supreme commander 2 which battle on shiva prime, is a good scenario. And more map with different elements, like in volcano, different atmospheric effect or different landscape with different battle strategy should be conducted. Map elements are so important, which in supreme commander 2, most of the battle are just too straight forward and I find it compare to total annihilation has no challenge at all. The naval battle just too simple.

Overall: 6.6

I don't like the score, because I like chris taylor games, I like supreme commander series (included TA). But this title is really a great disappointment for me. Even the previous strategy game I had (C&C kane wrath) is more fun that this. I mean the story and also the world domination mode. Perhaps the expansion for this game title will be much better. I am not sure there is any expansion for it. To put everything in the nutshell, this game is just a fairly average strategy game, whether you play it or not, you don't lose anything. But you really got to lose something if you don't try out TA and SC1.

Life is Busy

Life is just full of stuff that starts with P. I think finally business is just too good and I got no more time to teach anymore guitar at saturday. Perhaps life should have focus. I guess is being 2.5 years I have been teaching guitar at Taipan. Two students Sylvia and Philip are considered talented guitarist. One girl who can play acoustic guitar with good strumming. Another guy with good endurance and patient playing classical pieces. Really hope that both of them will practice harder and get better even without my guidance. 27th March would be my last day in teaching. I guess after that day, I will have lesser time for guitar. What a waste.

Yea life is really full of P and P and P.. it means project, proposal writing, programming. And Phui Wan said: Pengsan. I didn't know her name also starts with P. Progressing well everyday I guess. I guess one day we all should gather around and have a cups of latte and talks about P.. Stuff LOL

This month is a good month, just got 2 projects confirmed and still with more project coming in. Must work hard in order to finish one of the project end of this month. Is time to gather more money and Propose to her eh? I guess through the Prophecy, we should be getting married soon. Another P.. lucky pokai is not an english word. yes Porn hahaha. I mean the fishing Porn that Nick uses to fish those African fish, not the Pushing stuff.

Life is hectic and busy, time and money is always lacking LOL But i know my wish will come through this year. be Positive! Progressive! Productive LOL all the Ps.

I remember when I was studying in Inti College, they always talks about the 3Ps. But for me is Plagiarism, Photostat and Phantasm. Because of all of us like to be copycat. Luckily, I am top student so people copy from me. The life in college is another 3P. Yea I love 3P. Play, Play and play LOL. Cybercafe is always the usual place I hang out. Classroom is my bedroom. And all lecturers are just so boring:P. Time flies. Past. .......... is just another memories.

Start of New Spring. 立春

Today is the day after new Spring or whatever you called it. In mandarin is called 李春。This day is mark of beginning of the spring of another year. It also marks that winter has passed, spring is coming, and we got to work hard again.

Perhaps for past 1 week the luck is bad. Not sure why, cause Chinese horoscope said, it will be bad luck for me. But after chinese new year it will be good luck for me. I guess This new spring is the turning point of it. Thought not much happen.

Yesterday night after discussion with my customer regarding the Digi DSS system, finally we pay for hosting service at eXaBxteX. But because of the .NET application and virtual directory it took whole night to figure things out and their tech support is really stupid and not helping at all by sending me. "I am getting the following error message when following the steps you have mentioned. Please contact your script writer regarding this error." Feel damn frustrated and tulan when I see that. I was asking him how to create virtual directory within the sub folder. Then he asked me for the error message. So i point him to the login URL and told him he can Login using any username or password. End up again he asked me for username and password. FINE and I gave him again the information. and at the end He just told me that "I am getting the following error message when following the steps you have mentioned. Please contact your script writer regarding this error." WTF man.

Is like when you feel that you car is having some problem, you cannot really drive it smooth you send to work shop. Then you ask the mechanic to check for you. and do some diagnosis. Then he ask you "which part got problem?". Is ok to just tell him where to pinpoint the problem. then he asks again? How it happen? when it happens, how to make your problem again?... OK lar.. since he asks until like that , then just tell him when cornering and also switching gear the gear box is not responsive (example). Then after some hours of diagnosis he will tell you this

"I am getting some responsive action from your gearbox when following the steps you have mentioned. Please contact your Manufacturer regarding this Problem." What will you do? vomit blood right? Luckily I never encounter this problem with mechanic. I cannot understand why that a tech support has no analytical skill at all and never know how to help a users.

So when morning comes, I replied his email and ask him for another better guy who can solve this problem. then finally a much better guy comes and help me check everything and then let me know how to create the virtual directory using their control panel. Problem solves. efficient and accurate. That's what a user wants! Finally is done.

Then because of this .NET, I try to publish using Visual Studio to my local wwwroot. But my wwwroot has lot of stuff. Then it asked Do you want to overwrite it ? then I press YES. I thought i just overwrite those sub folder not DELETE it all:P then WOOOSH everything gone. ZZZZzzzzz. But nonethless, those important code are in virtual folder not in wwwroot thats the good things. But inside wwwroot has many other stuff and code that i used to build up other website too. Nevermind... I guess those are rubbish. Perhaps a new spring has to have a new start. IS good and is Bad:P LOL!

Then was playing on facebook. found someone wrote this when we were discussing about vishu lim status message.

有个人在床头贴了一张帖子, 写上 “不要太担心, 明天会更好” , 每次睡觉前就看了看, 然后安慰自己, 要好好睡觉, 明天醒来, 日子就会变好…结果, 过了好长时间, 他的日子依然潦倒, 他才醒悟到, 原来他只注重 “明天会更好” , 忘记了前面的 “不要太担心” ….. 不要太担心, 是写给有思考和有顾虑的人, 要他们把思考和顾虑减少；成天好吃懒做, 脑满常肥的人, 这句子可用不上… 不要再欺骗自己等待更好的明天了, 应该顾虑和思考的, 今天就要去做了… 今天不奋斗, 明天会更糟～ 与你们共勉 ～

I guess it is really true that, we should tell over not to worry too much tommorow will be better. It only applies for those who really think and worries too much. But for people who are lazy and never think, this doesn't apply, it will make them worse. if they don't start to think and work hard tommorow is always worse and worse and worst. So start thinking and worrying now. Start Fighting for better tommorow. not sleeping away and get paid.

Classical Guitar - Radical Dreamers

This is the ending theme of chrono cross radical dreamers. I have posted it on youtube is here



I will be uploading to my opaps.com/mp3 for mp3 downloading. hope you guys enjoy. This is a one time play through no editing. So is abit rough..The youtube sound quality is abit lower due to video compression I think. If you want clearer sound just go to www.opaps.com/mp3/radicalDreamer2.mp3 to download it.

IS being awhile

Is being awhile since I write here.

I guess it is almost like half a year I write here. Just that business is really damn slow, perhaps Malaysia economy will get better next year.

Perhaps I should do some recap of 2009 like What I did for 2008. But then there are too many pictures I took with BSS. so it will take some time to upload it. Nonetheless I will start to write my blog more frequently. Perhaps for some opinion about love and relationship after I read the books borrow from Wendy.

Basically it is nothing much, it talks about the standard of love relationship as the title for the first chapter. The book has many short chapter for people to read and get inspiration and in depth understanding the how love and relationship can be become. But then it doesn't apply for everyone out there.

Many people might be wondering what is the definition or standard of love. I have a female friend, she has a kind a big boobs:P. Whenever there is lingerie sales and undergarment promotion she always get to have great time shopping for her "inner beauty". But then sometimes things always have pros and cons. There is one day I went out shopping with her, and the bra are all half price. The style and the pattern of that bra she likes didn't have the size she wanted LOL. and is 36D wao. Then I told her her boobs are just too big. Then she tease me back said that what people call standard size LOL!.

Thus from the conversation there is many many ways of defining standard. But if what she said is true that standard breast size must be 36D then many girls got to have low self esteem when comparing to their boobs. But I have another friends, who have bigger boobs, but then problem they have big butt and big waist too:P and she still have great confidence in her body shape, and always wear sexy clothes to show off her body. That's her standard.

Because beauty, love and relationship is all 2 sides so sometimes it just too hard to have a standard for everyone. some people use to tell me beauty lies in the eyes of beholder, but I would say, beauty is just skin deep, but ugly goes to the bone LOL!. I am not being insulting, but I shoudl say, there is a "public" or human scale for standard beauty. For example if you think that girl is pretty, then just pass her picture around for 100 persons, and do some sampling, if 90 persons out of 100 said she is pretty then you can say, through your study she is 90% pretty, but may be you can say also say she is 10% ugly LOL!. yea. and some ugly old hag, that always thinks she is so GoooOOod. will only have the husband closing one eyes to appreciate her beauty. Yea she is still pretty but may be 5% pretty. So i can say using such scale everyone is pretty but with a percentage.

But why that, we don't have standard for love and relationship? Because is 2 persons matters. So other people opinion doesn't give a shit about how both interact or the relationship as long as both of them are happy and think is standard. Means if both agree about certain rules or regulation then it become their standard. But other people might think is weird ? might think is unacceptable. but that doesn't matter for them.

For example, in japan, when you have a gf/bf usually when you come out for meals, both of them will share half half, there is the culture being taught there. Even you go to hotel to have some fun, the rental fees are shared. Yea because that's their culture, but if you are a Japanese guy and you try to pay everything, and you and your gf agrees about it then it not a problem, and other Japanese, might just think you are a moron. But why bother so much? just like in malaysia, I have friends that share expenses with his gf. when both of them went out for lunch or dinner, the guy pay the meal and the girl might just pay the petrol or toll. That's their standard and both of them agree to it and they are happy. OF course other people might just comment about them, just me me writing here. Some of the guy might just think this bf is not gentleman enough. and some thinks guys should pay everything. and the comments go out until blog spot database is not able to cater those comments LOL.

And because we are talking about standard, there is also "good" guy or "good" girl standard.? Guy with 6 C? or Girl with 36D, girl with 6C is the good standard? Yea sometimes before we meet the right one, may be we are thinking we want someone who can help us in business, someone who are intelligent, someone who are pure and innocent, may be someone who will talk about everything with you and give you 100% transparency. And someone who will just do anything on bed to satisfied you that others might think is too outrageous. But then , sometimes, then love comes you just tend to fall in, and then you might realize that the girl or guy you are with now might not be have the standard you want after all? is that a mistake, nop that's not. Love is to accept someone as is, not to change them or make them to become the standard you have always wanted.

But just bear in mind that, may be because the love is too overwhelming, and someday because of the absence of those "standard" you have wanted. You might think they guy or girl are no longer worth loving?.. but if the love sustain all this can be compromised.

Food for thoughts

Is Being long time since I last wrote my blog, damn busy with all the projects and also busy dating GF:P Might have more sweet pictures to post later here:P May be Mr. Joke will get jealous and seriously I think his life is a joke, pity him that he cannot accept the truth and let go of his past and move on with his life. Not even 7th Month of chinese, then we have "ghost" haunting for people by blackmailing them. Lucky none of his words are bothered, we still have great appetite to eat lotsa foooood.



Usual dine in in Asia Cafe SS15 and try out some mediterranean food.





Above this we have our usual medi food call hummus. Do not confuse with hammas which Bruno has done in his show:P LOL. And the right side is our usual drinks, shandy, but this one is with green apple, i still prefer the original shandy, taste much more lemonade.

This is lamb ribs, they cook it quite good, not too hard, not too soft, just tender. With the sauce, every things seems to be delicious:P

Hummussssss, looks and taste abit weird for those who don't like medi/middle east food

4th of July 2009

4th of July sounds like some independance day, for me is the day I finally move out from my house and starts a new life "alone". I am really grateful and thankful for having good friends around, that offer me helps and supports. The only thing I grab from my house is my Inspiron 9400 laptop and the 1 TB external harddisk, cash and some company stuff. Other than that, just like my friend said, "two hands empty empty" and "two sleeves clear wind". So everything has to start from scratch.

Thanks to Mista Kai for your transport from my house to get Nick all the way to KL and then from KL all the way to Batu Tiga and then from Batu tiga with nick back to his working place again. I owe you one. Thanks for Nic for his Kia Spectra, really grateful enough that, after leaving home without house keys, car keys and even clothes I manage to have a spare car from my friend in such a short time. Really thank God for that.

And also thanks for Tan hui Chia, my friend in private piano teaching centre allows me to stay in her rented house and so happen it has one empty room there. I am really grateful that, I can move in on saturday itself. Even though we don't talk much and we don't really know each other that well, I guess is really nice to have you as friend.

After getting all the stuff, the night time and also 5th July I have been busy shopping around and then setting up my basic clothings and some basic necessities. Thanks to Siew siew for all your time and energy, I know what happened to me and between my family have given you emotional and mental pressured. I pray that you will be able to handle it well. I know these 2 days you must be very tired thinking alot of stuff and also shopping around with me.

I promise you, Siew Siew, in the future, no matter what happened, I would do the same for you to support you back. Thanks for the pants you bought me is really nice and comfortable:P Again just wanna thank you for your support when this is the toughest time in my life when I lost most of the thing in just one morning and start to setup all the basic stuff again. You will always be in my heart. And remember you are always kind hearted, nice and playful girl.

May be things have happened very fast, aggressive and drastic in our life for past 1 month. No matter how I will try my best to maintain our relationship. In my life, you are the first girl who gave me such passion, courage and perseverance to go through this tough situation. Fate has brought us together, and then my decision has brought us closer. Now is the time for endurance and perseverance, we got to maintain the sparks and passion so that the fire can burn longer and longer. I just want to tell you that I love you deep from my heart.

Thanks to shaun for his financial and moral support, thanks to brother lee lee who tried to source a house for me but failed:P and thanks for her moral support. Thanks for people who gives me emotional and mental support throughou this time. Thanks for my brother for offering his kelisa.

5th July night, I met with Jacqualine and chin tek, for some consultation and some idea on how to handle this situation and how can we handle our emotion and mental so that we don't blame ourselves and release us from feeling guilty. Sorry for putting you (Siew Siew) in this situation, is not your fault, is just happen that, things get triggered like that, sorry to involve you as a victim. Thanks for the curry fish head meal tonight Jacq, thanks for your advise and prayer. You have been very helpful to me all the time even your wedding doesn't offer us nice food:P LOL, sorry about that. I hope that God will bless you Jacq and Chin Tek with fruitful life and abundant happiness.

New life just begins, and there is more work to be done especially in my business and software development, May God bless my business grows well, and May God bless all those who helps, and grant peace and safety to my mom, and brother. May God bless Siew siew with abundant happiness. May all of us be granted the strenght and wisdom and perseverance to go through all the hardship.

Definition of love

I know I am celuping this from bible, but I find it true and meaningful. If you can achieve this kind of love you might truly, deeply, and madly in love with someone. LOL

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If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

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Life itself is a process

At last I guess I come to know why life itself is a process, sometimes the result is not too important. Because result might be just something nominal, only the process the memories associate with it is valuable and worth keeping.

I am glad that I meet you, to know you, to be with you. Even the time we being together is short but then the memories and sweetness you have brought me is really an enlightenment of what is love and how love should be. With you, I know that there is still people who love with all their hearts. And this gives me strength to move even more aggressive towards my other goals of life.

You are kind heart, nice, fun and playful, thanks for giving me suprises from time to time. You really create chemistry between us and sparks for my boring company. Cause I am a noob in love and dating LOL. from you i know the love that makes me so self less and brings out my true best! And you are still doing it, even sometimes you get hurt.

Nonetheless, I will be waiting for your answer, no matter what is it, I will sure respect your decision. At the end of the day, life itself is a process, with parallel threads and multiple handlers that allows us to grow and experience life. Though many things have been fated, I will still keep my promise over you

付出

如果有一天,你發現你的付出,赴諸流水..別不開心,因為你更了解了付出的價值..

Found this on sheko msn status, find it very meaningful. Because most of the time we are fed up contributing and giving out love or energy to someone else. But sometimes we don't have the so call "ROI", but dont give up or feel sad about it, cause it allows you to realize the price/value of sacrificing/contributing .

Another Story

It started when I saw you in a wedding.
I approach you and talk to you.
I promise you I will contact you again..
From that time On... I keep on searching for you....
And..... We have met again.

My 3D modelling in Maya

Finally I have to learn a Maya in order to model my game character, most probably in Robots which I think is easier, but not sure how difficult human model would be, but I guess in Maya it should not be too difficult compare to CAD software which is more focus on Mechanical engineering.

Though Solid Edge is really easy to pick up and doing solid part modeling, but some how it human modeling the requires intense surfacing and soft mod, Maya is still a better choice. Here is my first model following the tutorial to model a temple and render using Mental Ray.



Not bad huh for Noob like me? Elaine said the pillar looks uneven, I guess is optical illusion, since the base and each of the angle is calculated should not be so uneven. Will try harder next time to model more complex stuff..