Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Recap of 2008 - First Quarter


Here is some Recap of 2008 and What I have done in last year.

January:

Basically still rotting around and have some drinking session here and there. I think after 5 pub at damansara Perdana just open up. Is already one year from now.
This is Joanne, she is damn cute and pretty among all the pub girls. Sadly after awhile she didn't work in after 5. But lately she is back to after 5 working again. Behind her is Jess and some unknown guy. Jess doesn't look good in this pic eh.


February:
Basically is chinese new year occasion Before, during and After effect. So still rotting around like Pudge. Finish a DCS project, I think is Sankyu barcode system with their ship out tagging.
Having some CNY dinner opposite of berjaya building. Can't really remember what hotel is that. Not a memorable makan. LOL


Not sure what are those location also. Just know how to eat only:P


March:

Should have finished Sankyu project and working on Denso CB Project, Another shipping Barcoding project using some Windows Mobile device. Programming is using .NET compact framework with SQL compact version. Is nightmare since, the SQL compact version doesn't allow too many usual SQL statement. Thus end up we have alot of performance issue by pulling the whole table from main server into the device and do some duplicate check and so on. Other than that it was using Wireless transmission. So every barcode scan might require 2 to 3 data pull that resulted in great latency (lagging) issue.


But no pics for project, but have pic at after 5 where by Alex is drinking with Nana. I think she manage to court a rich bf and no longer work there lor for Nana.



To Prove that Alex is there also, you can see his hand and also this pink color shirt girl name Nana. Behind is Kim wearing black and white color hot western sexual clothing LOL. Kim is easily recognizable because I always tell others that she looks like those cultish that has big tatoo at her back. The tatoo doesn't look nice also, sounds like some kind of wrong tatooing job and kena tattoo again LOL.

That's it for my FIRST quarter of 2008. The reason that I split all this stuff into multiple chapter is because I am having problem to attach pictures and also adjusting the margin of my paragraph layout using blogspot composer. Abit troublesome. Will try to work around it by uploading all the pics first.

Sweet Sad String has a new LOOK!

I have change abit of my sweet string layout and also color scheme, since after posting some nong poy picture, I found that to have some pink inside my blog is kind a attractive also. Other than that I just want to keep things simple and clean. Previous layout is abit compact and also the font is ermm not that tidy, may be is meant for chaotic brain and make your thinking goes ups and down.

Nonetheless, A new year, a New Look, and always there is still room for improvement !

What to say?

These few days I wrote on my msn status message saying: What you wanna talk when you call someone you missssssss?

1) Sherren : If is GF then give just call her and tell her that I miss her, if is non-gf just sms.
2) Ah Kai: How much? (most probably he thinks every girl is like his name)
3) Unknown 1: "long time no meet lor, can I date you out?"
4) Unknown 2: "how are you? and ........."
5) Lennie: Just tell her that I miss her wor......
6) Rich man mike: "No need lar, got money got girls lar, they will call you to tell you they miss you."

Fictional:
1) Why chai: ehhh I got something to ask you (standard hand shaking protocol as why chai), you know I miss you KAR?
2) Indian Mapaleh: Maciaa, Mapaleh dei inaleh...???
3) Japanese: Mushi mushi, Watashi wa, anata wa, Iku , yamate yamate yamate.?? LOL
4) Monk: 施主,everything is also mirror flower water moon, you have to see through it...
5)唐僧(唐三藏): Dan Dan dan dan dan dan dan .....Only youuuuuuu..........!^#!%!#%


Nonetheless, is time to go back to work and rush for projectssssssss.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Artificial is better???

Recently many girls and guys in msn commented that my msn picture "girl" is really pretty. Actually her name is nong poy. She is a transexual from thailand. I forget her real name. But nong poy is kind a cute. Let's take a look at the pictures below. She just looks like a real girl. As report stated, she went through Sexual reassignment surgery. In layman term, or mod car term we said full mod. Not even half cut. HAnd made full mod from male to female. She looks damn gorgeous. But she used to be a guy. 

 

The face looks damn innocent

This one also looks damn cute, I wonder how can surgery made someone looks like that


This one even better, if she appears infront of any guys who don't know about nong poy, I believe no one can identify she used to be a guy


Somemore act cute LOL.


Fuyohhh, this one......... Damn seducing

I know I will never become like her, or I will be as pretty as her LOL. As my title says, artificial is better? Simply some how I think many stuff in this world which are human made are better than natural one, at least from the perspective of physically apperance lor. Just like nong poy, she is naturally a guy and full mod to a girl. and is fuhhh damn pretty. If you guys who live in west coast of malaysia, you all should been to port dickson. Remember the dark sand, dirty and murky water, and also extra mixing to the natural sand (garbage). But recent year, local authority suddenly damn rich, and pump in some money to beautify the seaside, now is covered with white sand, and also the sand is smooth, the view is also more aestatically pleasing than before and that's all. Half natural and half artificial. 

Just like cartoon character, anime and also 3D character. Some of them are so gorgeuos, especially with current 3D technology, the game character looks so vivid as real person. But is still artificial or may be virtual. Hmm virtual and artificial. So what about artificial intelligence? hmm is abstract stuff, perhaps one day it will be better than human and turn againts us like in matrix and terminator? I belive it will happen so, just like if you are having an virtual machine, that virtual machine can also be used to hack your main VM Host  and cause the VMHost to shut down. But in the same time the virtual machine would get shut down too. Or may be in current technology using VMware, another host will take over this virtual machine and keep running.

Again, as we discuss about Virtual machine and physical computer machine, nowadays many people are going for virtualization, why? cause is better, more realiable, high availability, easy setup and duplication and so on. But many natural still are better than artificial? just like hmm artificial food as is artificial eggs, artificial bread, artificial char siew pow and so on....... sigh......... For consumer and human is damn bad, but then for business man is definitely better than natural food, why? easier to produce, as like VMWare has said, easy to get duplicated.

So...... Everyone is not perfect, but yet unique .....

Is Year 2009

Life being so busy, but yet new year eve and New year 2009 I was rotting at home like Pudge.  Is more than 20 days I didn't update my blog, thanks for visitors and readers like Sherren who keep supporting this blog.  Two comments from her is GOSHhh:P...  No offend.

For new year, there is always new year resolution, what's yours? I am still the same shallow me, getting more money, getting happier and getting healthier that all. May be is too general or too vague to be a new year resolution or some kind of objective. So for money how to get more? May be do work more productively and think lesser about Jesss. Hmmm or getting more sales? I think my market is good so sales is getting more and more, got to rush for production. Yea few delayed projects got to complete it before customer really rot like pudge. or I will suffer like G did (if you know who is G then you should grow up nore or less the way I am). 

Next thing come to happiness? ermm not sure how it is, but let's go for healthier body or life. I think is simple, exercise more. So try to fix a target like go to swim every week? or twice a week or GYM 3 times a week? I guess that's good enough. What about eating ? Nahhhh..... We got to enjoy food, that's part of happy life. Just like shaun said, basically if we earn so much we don't eat drug, we don't sniff K powder, we don't call chicken or massage girl, we don't gamble, and we don't drink alot, then only thing we can do is eat whatever we want to make overselves happier. Or may be getting few more console at home like PS3 and Xbox360 to keep and collect dust. 

Hmmm eating good food sounds lack of innovation, may be I should force myself to write a post per week or 2 posts per week in order to make my blog more lifely. Or to make sherren visits my blog more. Or may be once a month i should record a song and post online. Hmmm So in summary:

1) Go exercise every week, must increase to 2 or 3 times per week 

2) Write blog every week and post song every month (kind a hard)

3) Make myself more productive in works, (one function or one module per day?)

4) Make Sherren visit my blog more.

5) Grow my business of COURSE! 500K this year!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Boring christmas

This christmas eve and christmas day is really special, the only day I stay at home and ROT. LOL. Cause really no form to work no form to any other stuff. For the Eve, just keep playing an unfinished old game name galactic civilization.

That game is from first strategy, and is similar to Sid meiers civizliation. but is focus on galactic civilization and conquest. For starting, I spend countless of restarting to figure out how to play properly and build up my star system. Some how feel damn irritated when the colonized planet doesn't earn me anything. The worse thing is there is no tutorial and then I keep on buying building and leasing it from soem corporation or bank. Then I found out I alwyas have some negative cash flow LOL. but nonethless at the end I manage to play it well, using CHEAt LOL. Game master 8, I make my cash become 15 million dollars. Then I just keep buying building and clicking end turn for no reason. Spending few hours to reach the final research. DAMN... at the end when you get to resaerch BEYOND human tech. then you get the end game scene. Nothing fantastic. Bored game.

The next day, just play sid meier civilization. And before that I wanted to try out X2- Threat the CD Spoilt. damn demoralized. then elaine told me not to get emo because of the CD, sigh. I never even get to play that game yet:P then it spoilt haiz... For civilization 4 is easy, when you start anything build a couple of warrior then march to your nearby civilization and capture their headquarter, using this you are already double the score of others. then keep teching and get better military unit then try to destroy another civilization, and try to conquer the same continent and capture all other cities. Once you do that, you are safe. Start to build up naval unit and transport your gunpowder units or modernized unit to other continent and capture their cities. they will be no match for you, my score is 4x of any other civilization, and keep capturing. At the end you will be having modern armor tank VS their lousy elephant or spearman. but this game is abit illogical that, a gunship (helicopter) can be defeated by granadier or even spearman. is like they can throw the spear up so high until it hit the heli. Or the grenade can reach the gunship. Not sure whatkind of super human strenght is that. 

26th is mostly off day for many, but the same old day wake up and went out for some appointment and lim teh talk cock, and can't get to date any girls LOL. Then finally went home the same old face. May be Jess Poison is still deep haha. Not sure what is happening, may be should grab couple of jazz beer to neutralize it. Sherren said I should try to get help from Jess she should have the antidote, hmm may be yes, may be no lor. Certain poison doesn't come with antidote one ler, may be is magic LOL. Need anti magic shell.  What to do, need to keep rushing for production. While many of the factory has stop their production, i still need to rush for many back log. zzzz The market is always infront of me, when can I catch up? by drinking few more Jazz beer ? LOL

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Lion Club and "Passing Winter" dinner

21st december 2008. In chinese lunar calendar is "Dong Zi" or cantonse "guo dong" occasion. In english it means passing the winter. I guess in china, this day the snow will fall more and more until chinese new year comes. So it is an important day, that people stay at home and have reunion so they don't stuck inside snow LOL.

The lion club dinner is held at SRJK(C) sungai wei same like my brother JCI dinner. But this one with more people and the purpose is for charity. The "best" is you can purchase "Jess" (Jaz) Beer with 6 Bucks per can, and for every Can you purchase 1 buck is donated for charity. So this is the only time whereby, "drinking legs" get to do charity by having beers. Jazz beers taste like shandy with more alcohol. Is like a blend of Carlsberg and also Shandy. Not bad for starter. But for some of those hardcore brandy and whisky "legs" I guess is like mineral water for them.

And also Recently may be watch too much of hong kong series (Gem of life), so it seems that many, of those rich senior enterpreneur are resemblance of those shows, the only main difference is , Gem of Life has too many leng lui and leng chai, even those senior citizen looks remarkably physically attractive (Using general probability voting - don't tell me beauty lies in the eyes of beholder). Our table are located at 33 and 34, where Esolid, Intellimark and also KEU Group people are together. Some of them brought their family and parents too. And then there is some handsome and pretty girls.

And also if anyone of you follow my blog, you will know that God has prophesized that I will be marrying SOON. Thats.. scary cause As people who know me well think I don't get married at young age, neither myself think that. But at this dinner I have met someone who matches the criteria that God has told me previously, Hmm I think I should consult the oracle again in order to get a visual display of her LOL. But nonetheless, she already has bf, and I guess I have to wait and observer and wait again for fate to manifest its power. Or may be I should make decision and take action to fullfill the prophecy. You know elaine always say that is, ermm prophecy paradox or something. so we should wait and see.

Friday, December 5, 2008

爱一人

爱一人


如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦,
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦,
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦,
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦,
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!


***爱&缘分***
1.她無聊時陪她〃
2.她難過時安慰她〃
3.男生要主動點〃
4.多約女友出去〃
5.不能讓女友主動約〃
6.讓她每天都開心愉快〃
7.要好好對待女友〃
8.順從女友的意〃
9.不要讓她傷心難過〃
10.當她被欺負要立刻去保護她〃
11.不要隱瞞女友事情〃
12.不能背叛女友〃

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Garbage Enzyme - How true is it?

Recently, my friend told me about this Garbage enzyme and how it works and some benefits. Out of curiosity I google the internet about Garbage Enzyme and this website came up http://www.o3enzyme.com. I am not here to judge how true it is, I think I should leave it to the reader to judge. But before that let's also take a look at what is OZONE O3 in wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ozone.

Ozone definition:

Ozone or trioxygen (O3) is a triatomic molecule, consisting of three oxygen atoms. It is an allotrope of oxygen that is much less stable than the diatomic O2. Ground-level ozone is an air pollutant with harmful effects on the respiratory systems of animals and humans. So remember if you produce any O3 in Ground level (IE. your house or aparment) you are actually polluting the air. And it is also harmful to human.

Let's see what O3enzyme.com has to say about their solution.

--------------------------FROM o3enzyme.com --------------------

Use Enzyme to Reduce Global Warming
What is Garbage Enzyme?

Dr Rosukon's Garbage Enzyme is a complex organic substance of protein chains and mineral salts and juvenile hormones. 
 
Functions of Garbage Enzyme

- resolve / decompose
- transform / change
- compose / make up / combine
- catalysis

As a result of catalysis, ozone is produced which can reduce the amount of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere and this in turn reduces global warming.

This enzyme can be produced easily with the organic waste from our kitchens.

During enzyme production, O3 + NO3 + CO3 are generated and these could help purify and whiten the clouds in the sky. Those clouds that trap lots of heavy metals appear dark. Those dark clouds cause more heat to be trapped on earth due to the greenhouse effect. O3 (ozone) from the garbage enzymes could reduce the heavy metals in the clouds and this would reduce global warming. 

More NO3 (nitrite) in the air is useful as nutrients for the plants and soil.



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Lets read about what is enzyme http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enzyme.

Lets analyze each of the above statement

*As a result of catalysis, ozone is produced which can reduce the amount of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere and this in turn reduces global warming.

As you read about the ozone article in wikipedia, there is no way to produce O3 using enzyme. Even it is, to produce O3 at ground level is air pollution and is harmful to human if you remember. and O3 is highly unstable and cannot reach the ozone layer. Again O3 does not reduce carbon dioxide in our air if you read the article about ozone in wikipedia. O3 does not reach well with Co2 but hey wait:

Ozone reacts with carbon to form carbon dioxide, even at room temperature:
C + 2 O3 → CO2 + 2 O2

So Ozone takes away carbon and form CO2? it O3 is going to reduce CO2 and it should not form it.

*This enzyme can be produced easily with the organic waste from our kitchens.

I am not sure about that, but I really wanna know what is the scientific name of the enzyme. If is that simple, we should have included this in our high school chemistry syllabus.

*O3 + NO3 + CO3 are generated and these could help purify and whiten the clouds in the sky

O3 will never make it to ozone layer or even the sky. Again read about what is NO3

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/No3. They two BOLD Capital words I saw is HUMAN TOXICITY AND MARINE TOXICITY. I would say the cloud is as white as the time before we have our air pollution problem. whiten? 

*Those clouds that trap lots of heavy metals appear dark.

I thought thicker cloud appears to be darker?

*More NO3 (nitrite) in the air is useful as nutrients for the plants and soil.

NO3 is most likely become a salt with metal and again is Ion, it can't just stand alone like that without combining with other molecules. 

So now, reader should be able to judge whether such enzyme can be produced  by kitchen waste?

and O3 can be produced through this manner and is it helping the earth ?

For everyone out there defintely we want healthy lifestyle and healthy earth, is your choice to use this methods or not, but bare in mind that O3, NO3  is harmful to human, anything to do with drinking, bathing and so on, please do more analysis before trying it out.  Choice is yours!



Penang Trip

For no reason, we travel to penang and the only things I can remember is eat eat eat and sleep and eat eat and come back.

First afternoon, we have something generic at the mamak nearby Queensbay mall nothing too special so no photo taken 

First round we have asam laksa at gurney drive. Like Mr. Loh said, if go penang don't eat Asam laksa is wasted.

Too delicious, only manage to take photo when I am eating half way.

Here we have Ais kacang, actually we wanted to eat cendol, but end up too excited and eat wrong stuff:P


This is some snacks, errr forget what it is called. if you eat it before you should know its name


LOL, When the second round of dinner started, we are just too busy eating, what you see inside the picture is the left over only. Inside it has, BBQ crabs, Ikan pangang, Lala, Fried Birdies, Salty Prawn.


this is the drink we have through out the entire Dinner session hehe.


Another picture to show off our crab left over and crab shell hahah

Second day we have fried kuey tiao, and on the way back we have asam laksa and mee rebus at Kuala Kangsar, not sure have photo or not, but usually will be the finished stuff haha

Monday, December 1, 2008

Sleepless Night

After some lunch and "blow water" session with friend, went over to get some quote with my brother damanged kelisa, but then result is not what I have expected, or maybe I have expect too much... sigh... Still have to go to support customer and again life has to go on.

Today so happened nearby cheras business center after meeting some people there, went to see lenny at PLU pub, so happend nicole, evon and also ah mei are not working. More to my suprise, Nicole just got married and went to penang liao.  Really not within my expectation. 

As lenny mentions, after they all work in PLU pub, she met the guy around august and get married last month. Hmm I guess that was november 11 where by I told alex we wanted to go san diego again cause last year 2007, I sing a song with nicole in San diego, it said明年这个时间 约在这个地点, means tommorow at this time at this place and blah blah blah. So if you recognized this song you should know what song is that haha. 

May be human really changes? and life is a miracle like jess said in her msn status. Come to think of it, I think I still like computer games, but due to heavy work load, I didn't really Dota for long time, as few months back annoucing myself as "gold pan wash hand" hahaha. Or everyone around me is changing not me, just like the quote said 

"don't look back with anger, don't look forward with fear, but look around with awareness, and even then, 3 words sum up about the life we are having now, IT GOES ON!"

And I seriously treat most of the girls as brothers and sisters, may be someone is not hahaha. But is kind a sad that people don't understand me and said that I work hard after the girl has bf. If I wanted to go after her I guess I would have taken action long time ago, even I am fetching her back when I am in office just because I am doing a colleague job, nothing more nothing less. 

May be Just like "brother" Lee from mentakab said, some people are too kampung, seeing me and her going out together and drinking at coffee shop then sure think got something happen.. sigh.. But may be hor like "brother" Lee said, I looks like some one really shallow hahaha, so whatever people think I can't control, the most important is our own thinking, be positive, constructive and optimistic. 

May be I am expecting too much

Most of the time, we will say friends are meant to support each other and help each others. But I guess we should not expect too much about friends, because :
1) they have their responsibility toward other "brothers" and friends,
2) they have their own personal stuff to do, so they might not free
3) friends are just friends, they are not "compulsory" to help you to the max
4) they wish to help but may be is not within their capability
5) we are not worth enough for them to sacrifice their time. LOL..

No matter how, we got to be the light for the world, we should always contribute and give a helping hand if can have. But we also need to defend ourselves from all harmful attack and also unhealthy emotion. So don't over expect, if not you will be in dissapointment.

Sometimes I am really pessimistic, that's why when I am in deep shit not many can really help me, other than God or books (consider about some technical issues or working issues)

So at the end, we have to be more independant in order to survive the harsh world.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

A great teacher story

I got this forwarded email, it is a touching story, and this is life...... Be grateful we didn't have to be living in that situation

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卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学… 别笑,看过你就不会笑了 Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school... Don't laugh, after you read, u won't laugh. 看完这个帖子,无语了。我不知道该说什么,是社会错了,还是怎么了? After I read this story, I speakless. I don't know what to say, is it society's fault, or else? 殷彩霞死了,死前她是一名妓女,更确切的说,她是一名老师。是当今中国当之无愧的老师。她用自己肮脏的身体,纯洁了孩子的心灵。 Xia die, she was a hooker, or she was a teacher. She is the most honourable teacher in China . She use her dirty body, wash thru children's heart. 一个妓女死了,所有的孩子哭着参加了她的追悼会,学校的国旗为她降了一半! A hooker's death, all children cried and attend her funeral, a school drop the national flag for her. 这名年仅21岁的美女教师的追悼会上,校长翻开殷彩霞的日记,当着孩子们的面老泪纵横地朗读起来,她这样写道:卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学…
In the funeral of this 21yo pretty teacher, headmaster read Xia's diary sadly in front of all the students, she written : 'Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school.'....殷彩霞出生在甘肃省某县的农村,在那个贫困的地方,村里的其他姑娘,无论美丑,早就到南方沿海城市去打工挣钱了,每到春节,她们都会打扮得花枝招展,大包小包的提回来。而殷彩霞高中毕业后没这么做,很多人都不理解,毕竟她的长相在村里是数一数二的。为此,她的父亲经常骂自己的女儿没出息。 Xia lived in a small village of province of Gan Shu . All ladies in this small village, no matter she is pretty or not, went to Southern part of city to earn money. Every spring time, they will come back with money and beautiful cloths. Xia didn't follow after she finished her secondary school. A lot of people don't understand what is she thinking of as she has the pretty face and body. And because of this, her father always scold her.听说当地一所民办小学缺老师,她主动跟学校要求免费代课。因为她中学成绩就很好,顺利的通过了学校的文化考核,成为一名真正的民办教师。 When she heard of the only primary school in the village needs some teachers, she volunteerly ask to become a free teacher. She is a very good student in her secondary school and because of this, she easily pass thru all the test and became the teacher of the school. 当殷彩霞第一次走进课堂的时候,孩子门哗然了,他们从未见过如此漂亮的女老师。从此,教室里常常洋溢着孩子们的欢声笑语。说是教室,其实也就一遮风挡雨的茅草棚,树杆埋成的墙,石板搭起的课桌,砖头码起的讲台,最值钱的就是那块用青砖砌起之后经打磨又刷了黑漆的黑板了,粉笔不够用,常以石灰与泥巴代替。就是在这样条件下,殷彩霞教会孩子们认识了几千个汉字,也教会了他们很多做人的道理。 The 1st time when Xia walk into the classroom, all children shock to see a pretty teacher. From then on, the classroom always fill with children's laughter. Classroom -- should call it a hut instead as the wall is made of sticks and cover with leaves as its ceiling. A big stone become their table and the most expensive should be the polished dark-green stone as their blackboard. With this condition, Xia taught thousands of Chinese words and knowledge to her students.一天夜里刮大风,茅草棚盖的学校屋顶被掀翻,黑板也被刮倒。第2天孩子们上学的时候各个不知道所措。校长去找县教育局长要钱结果无功而返。老校长晚上回来对殷彩霞说,局长说要你去才给。从来没有出过远门、也没有见过世面的殷彩霞怕把事情搞杂了,胆怯的步行10几公里去了县里。局长的办公室装修很豪华,墙上挂着很多锦旗,办公桌黑里透红,可以照见人影,上面立着一面小国旗,椅子是皮的,好象擦了鞋油一样光亮,比他的脑袋还要亮。局长见到殷彩霞,色咪咪聊了很多不着边际的话。直到天黑了,校长指着另外一扇门对她说,跟我过来拿钱。当殷彩霞走进去的时候,她只看到了一张床,也就是在那张床上,她失去了她的第一次,确切地说,是局长夺走了她的第一次。 There was wild rain destroy the classroom of the school and all students become schoolless. The headmaster visit the province's education minister for some money to repair the classroom and come back with nothing. Headmaster told Xia that the minister said only will give money if Xia ask for it. Xia never meet any minister before and afraid that she will make the things worst and decided to visit the minister. She walked more than 10km to the province ministry office and sit in a beautiful office in front of the minister. Minister's eyes looks hungry and point to a room and said to Xia. Your money is in the room, if you want, follow me. Xia saw a big bed in the room and is the bed that she lost her virgin. Minister raped her. 床单上留下了处子的血,那血,比挂在局长办公室墙上的国旗还要红。 Her virgin blood drop on the bedsheet and is more reddish than the color of the national flag in the room. 殷彩霞没有哭,因为,在眼前浮现的是孩子们没有教室上课而可怜的望着她的眼神! Xia didn't cry, all she is thinking of is the eyes of all disappointed students that have no classroom. 她连夜步行回到家里,没有跟任何人说起她的屈辱。 She didn't tell anyone about the rape after she went home. 第二天,村民们自发来到学校,买了些材料把简陋的教室重新搭建起来了。可遇到刮风下雨的日子,依然上不了课。殷彩霞几次跟孩子们说,县里不久将会来人给他们买砖头盖一所牢固的教室,在这半年里,校长去县城找了局长十几趟,一分钱没拿到。只有他知道局长对殷彩霞做了些什么,但他却无能为力。新学期开始了,很少人交得起学费,能够坚持来校上课的孩子越来越少了,他们都跟着父母放羊去了。殷彩霞内心感到了疼痛,为这些失学儿童而疼痛。 The next day, with the money that brought back by Xia, all villagers bought some woods and repair the classroom. But whenever there was a heavy rain, the classroom still cannot be used. Xia always tell the students that province ministry department will built a good school for them. In the past half year, headmaster had visited the ministers more than 100 times and never ever get any money from them. He is the only 1 knows what did Xia did and he can do nothing about it. New semester comes, a lot of students cannot pay their fees and become schoolless and follow their parents to work. Xia sad about that.当殷彩霞知道孩子们的希望已经化为泡影的时候,她脱光了自己的衣服,对着镜子暗暗发誓将用自己的身体去实现孩子们的上学梦。在家乡她知道那些花枝招展回来过年的姐妹们都是在外做批肉生意的。她明白那是一条赚钱的捷径。她洗了个澡,告别了校长、告别的父亲,告别了那间千疮百孔的茅草棚,扎着两条麻花辫走向了繁华的大都市。临走的时候,父亲笑了,校长哭了..... When Xia feel that her hope of all students can go to school become hopeless, she drop all her cloths and swear to her naked body that she will use this body to exchange for the children to be able to go to school. She knows that all ladies in the village are working as a prostitute to earn the living and she knows this is a shortcut for her to earn money. She washed herself and say goodbye to headmaster, father, and school. She tight her hair as 2 ponytails and walk to the city. When she leave, her father smile and headmaster cry.... 繁华都市的五颜六色并没有给殷彩霞带来一丝兴奋,她眼里始终浮现的是那间低矮茅草棚搭建的教室和孩子们渴望的目光。她走进了一家发廊,躺在了肮脏的床上,经受了人生的第二次蹂躏。那天,她在日记本上写着:局长连个嫖客都不如。 殷彩霞是那帮姐妹里最节俭的女孩。她从来不化妆,也从来不穿那些性感的衣服,她总爱扎着麻花辫,但她的生意却总是最好的,她总是抢了其他妓女的饭碗,她也经常为此遭到妓女们的群殴。鼻青脸肿之后,她会走向另一家发廊,似乎只有在那粉色的灯光下她才可以看到希望。看着嫖客们一张张邪恶的嘴脸,她似乎看到了孩子们天真的笑容,但她从来就不曾因此而流泪,因为,她是个老师。 In the colorful city, Xia is not happy at all, in her mind, there are only broken classroom and sadness and disappointed eyes of students. She walked into a Hair-Saloon, lay down on a dirty bed, and accept her 2nd dirty business. In that night, in her diary, she wrote : 'Minister can't even compare to her 1st customer. At least they pay.' 她将自己的收入除去生活费之后,全部寄给了校长。校长按照殷彩霞的意思将她寄回的一笔笔嫖资全都用于改善小学的教学条件上。有人问起那笔钱的来源,校长就说那是社会捐助的善款。 She sends all her earnings except those for her to live on to headmaster. Headmaster follows her instruction to use the money on the school. People ask about the source of the money and headmaster only answer that it was from some donation of society. 世上没有不透风的墙,有一天终于从邮局传来消息说那些钱是殷老师寄来的。当地媒体得知这一消息后纷纷试图采访殷彩霞,但都被她婉言谢绝了,因为,她是个妓女。 After a while, people knows about the source of money is from the teacher and many reporters would like to interview her and she just refused and the reason is that she is just a prostituet. 有钱了,学校变了,第一个月,买了黑板,修了屋顶。第二个月,有了木制的课桌与板凳。第三个月,所有的孩子都有了课本。第四个月,所有的孩子都有了红领巾。第五个月,已经没有孩子光着脚丫上课了。 With the money, the school changed. First month, there is a new blackboard. 2nd month, a wooden table and chair. 3rd month, all children has their own books. 4th month, all children has a red tie. 5th month, no children go to school bare leg. 第六个月,殷彩霞回来了。当孩子们看到她的时候,争先恐后地叫她'殷老师……殷老师回来了……殷老师好漂亮啊……'。看到孩子们激动的笑脸,殷彩霞哭了,这半年里,多少的委屈和泪水,在她眼里都那么的有价值。 On the 6th month, Xia come back. All students welcome her happily and say 'Teacher is so beautiful'... With all student's smiling face, Xia cries.. how many tear drops and how many sadness in the past 6 months.. she feels worthy when she see all these. 在家呆了几天,殷老师又踏上了南下的路。 After few days at home, she goes back to city. 第七个月,有了操场。 第八个月,有了篮球。第九个月,有了新铅笔。 第十个月,学校有了自己的国旗,孩子们每天都能够在操场上看到国旗冉冉升起 在第十一个月,一个房地产商坚持不用套,结果让殷老师意外怀孕了,打完胎后,殷老师成了房地产商的二奶。可那位包养她半年的房产商因为因近段时间深圳房价陡降而抛弃了她,一分钱没付。 7th month, built a ball park, 8th month, basketball, 9th month, all students has their new pencils. 10th month, the school has their own national flag, students raise the national flags daily. 11th month, a land-developer refuse to use condom and Xia pregnant. After abortion, she become the developer's mistress. After a few months, the developers dump her because he faced problem on land-value drop in ShengXhen, he didn't pay her 1 cent. 殷彩霞终于疲倦了,她想回家,她想回到孩子们的身边,可她最大的梦想是为孩子们盖上一间砖砌的教室,再为孩子们买上两台电脑,因为这个梦想还没实现,所以她只能回头去苦苦哀求那位房产商。房产商说没钱,但可以为她介绍一笔大生意,一老外,愿意出三千美元买她一夜。想到几年前的那阵大风,殷彩霞拖着疲惫的身躯爬上了老外的床。她发誓,过了那个晚上她就回到她久别的家乡,回到她久别的课堂。 Xia feel tired, she think of go home and go back to the school, but she has yet to fulfill student's dream which are building a concrete classroom and 2 PCs for the students. Because of these, she went back to beg the developer and the developer just refuse to pay anything but only introduce a foreigner to her. Said the foreigner will pay her 3000rmb for 1 night. Think of the wild rain happen few days ago, she tiredly goes to the foreigner's hotel. She sweared that she will go back to her home and school after this. 可就在那个晚上,殷老师被三个外国人强奸致死。死前她才刚过完自己21岁的生日。 She killed by the 3 foreigner because of raping. She just turned 21yo. 殷老师死了,她没能完成她最后的夙愿,那就是给孩子们盖上一间砖砌的教室,再为孩子们买上两台电脑 Xia died without fulfill her final wish which to build a concrete classroom and 2 PCs. …… 一个妓女死了,悄无声息。深圳的天空还是那么蓝,官员们在豪华宴席上高谈阔论,道路上行驶的高级轿车散发着耀眼的光芒。兴奋的人们滔滔不绝地谈论着股票、房价和车市,还有电影、音乐和爱情。路边亲亲我我恋爱的小青年们为了一点小事要死要活。 ............ A hooker dies, silently, the sky of ShengZhen is still as blue as before, ministers still happily sitting in their office, many expensive cars still running on street, people happily discussing share market, house market value, car value, and movies, music and love story. Youngster try to suicide because of small matters happen between themselves. 可在此时,甘肃那个人们已经忘记了的小山村,正在举行只有学生、老师和数百位沉痛的村民的追悼会。 At this time, students, teachers and few hundreds of villagers attending the funeral in this small village 'GanShu' 追悼会上,人们看到殷彩霞的一张黑白照片,照片里,她扎着两个麻花辫,笑得如此单纯。校长翻开殷彩霞的日记,当着孩子们的面老泪纵横地朗读起来,她这样写道:卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学… 校的国旗降了一半。 In the funeral, people see a black and white photo of Xia. In the photo, she has 2 pony tails and happily smile. Headmaster open the diary of Xia and read in front of all students, she wrote : ' Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school...'
The national flag drop to its half... May be, this is the ONLY national flag drop half because of a GREAT hooker in China 's history. 或许,这是中国历史上,第一个为一个伟大的妓女而降的国旗。 多好感言:写这篇文章,我整整哭了两个小时。从今以后,我再也不会歧视任何妓女,因为她们当中有一个殷彩霞。真诚希望大家多转载此文,贴满各个论坛和空间.让我们的父母官们看看,当他们在台上高谈阔论的时候,当他们在酒桌前恍酬交错的时候,当他们以权谋私的时候,当他们在台上学习三个代表的时候,多想想那个不是共产党员的殷彩霞和万千处于水深火热的穷苦百姓。彩霞在那个世界在用哀求的眼神望着我们。 殷彩霞虽然身为妓女,但她比谁都活得高尚,比谁都活得有尊严。在人心冷漠、肉欲横流之下,她给予孩子们的爱难道不是我们社会最可贵的'大爱'吗? After I read this, I cried for 2 hours. From now on, I won't discriminate any hooker, because among them there is a Xia. Hope you will forward this mail to all forum, friends, webspaces, to let all our governments to understand when they are saying and empty-promissing, when they are drinking in the pub, when they are doing dirty politics, Someone using her own power to change the world. Xia is using her sadly eye to look at all of us. Although she is just a hooker, she is more clean and saint than any of us. In this cold and dirty society, what she gave to the students are human's 'Great Love'.
殷彩霞带着未完成的遗憾离开了这个世界,作为生者,我们理当完成彩霞的遗志,在这个寒冷的冬天,多给千百万穷苦的人们、多给社会奉献我们的爱心和责任。奉献给大家这篇感人的故事,愿我们每个人都能够开心的生活,为社会多奉献点爱心。 希望大家把这帖子多转转 灵魂的震撼!
Xia leaves the world with wishes, can't we continue her jobs of bringing more hope to the poors? If we can, why dun we share our love, our capable to these children in the third world or support those who try to be Xia in our country? Share our love to PRC, support them more.. we can be saint ourselves.
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China is the BEST

Today my brother passed me some of the youtube video, i guess may be he is too free and surf around youtube to find some entertainment.

This chinese michael jackson spoof is marvelous, and notice the lyric if you know chinese. you will laugh your ass off

This one spoof smooth criminal and talking how great is Sadam Hussein


This one is BEAT IT, and talk about some guy buying some XO using fake note.

 

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Quote of Day

Life is difficult,



Full of trails,


Sorrow,



Pain,



but if you fall down,
just stand up straight,
be confident and SAY...

"TIU NIA SING" WHO PUSH ME AR!!!
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LOL!!!

Dark Road to Bright Path

Today, as promised, I travel to mentakab for official and unofficial business hahaha. The most important thing is not about the business. But is the winding road travelling from gombak to mentakab. And of course some kampung road. It really brought back many of olden days memories.

I can't remember the exact day that I travel to mentakab to meet Aunty K and brother LL. But tracking back to my project proposal, I created the document roughly at July 2005, And meeting them at august 2005. I guess it was a good experience that bunch of us traveling from KL to mentakab. I still remember I have to wake up about 5am and travel to klang and fetch one of my partner then from there Using Kesas flying car all the way to mentakab. The first time we were travelling on the winding road is really exciting and no one dares to drive fast, may be maximum at 90km/h. After going there to support many times, the driving skills go through some refinement and then gradually I can achive top speed like 150km/h on the speed trap meter.

So first day is nothing much, meet up, meeting, talk some crap, and the only question I remember was "brother" Lee asking us, what if after 1 or 2 years the company chap lap, how are we going to support her? I guess my question is "If you continue to pay us the "expensive" maintenance per year we should not run out of business". and now I remember why my business didn't do well hahaahhaha. What happened in the middle and implementation of the project and so on really not important.

So after 1 or 2 years, the partners in my company having some argument and quarrel, due to business problem, profit sharing and so on. I guess no one wants it that way, just we are too young and not mature enough to handle certain problems, we never have good foresight for certain issues, we never have black and white too. Thus at the end we got to strike offfff the business. Not chap lap like "brother" Lee said lar. But more or less same situation but different status.

As today I was travelling back from mentakab after some verocious Dinner at old town kopitiam (but now at 12.35am I am feeling hungry again), is about 8.00pm and the sky started to rain. It is the first time I drive with fear and exciting, because is really hard to see the road with such lighting and the rain is heavy. You know kampung road, there are no lampost and even it is the light is most probably not powerful enough to light up the road as the rain getting heavier. Because I have to drive REALLY Slow like 60 or 70 which normally I don't, I started to think back about Jess, Rachel, another brother alex Lee, who might be also in "trouble" situation.

To "Brother" Jess,
As you told me "isn't it good if human can be like laptop get reformated and restart everything? so i can forget all the past?"

I know you are in stress mood, and may be you can't find the solution or etc. As today I travel down the dark kampung road, I feel the same fear as you, even these few years, I have been going ups and down, getting big payroll projects, getting out of business, because of business we lost friend (which i think is regretable), getting sued, getting into dilemma, having dream like taking chair and whacking your boss, and so on. Again I would say, all this pain, struggle, is part of the melodies of life. It serves as refinement for me. Because of my partners, i get to know "brother"Lee, because of another business failure I get to know brother alex lee, and because of drinking kaki like alex lee I get to know "brother" Jess.

And the rain is still heavy, some how I know is raining season, I wanted to stop my car and wait for it to stop, but then as mariah carey always sings, I can make it through the rain. So I have faith , I know I will reach the lamp posted high way and I will reach the light. It is relieved when I reach the highway tolls there is light everywhere and things are clear, but then soon when you go on karak highway everything is even darker, but you have wider roads. But as usual, I can't stop, Just like What I have told you before. "The past might have defined your present, but don't let it control your future". Try not to look backward too much, step forward, even is crawling is slow, you will reach the destination, somewhere you are familiar somewhere that has light that you are comfortable to live on and move on or even speed. The winding roads, the rain, the dark cloud, will soon pass away.

May be some of the past are too pain to handle now, but I never recommend to reformat even to laptop or pc. why? because to rebuild the foundation is tedious, to reinstall, to configure, is not easy though. Especially in life, we might hate many in our past, like both "brother" lee and I have bad experience with J, but those experience has really taught us many things. Pain, fear, suffering might be destructive for our life, but yet we have the choice to turn those experience become a constructive refinement and becomes a sharing to others who needs help in future.

So don't get reformatted, our memories are precious, that's why we have many backup solution nowadays which offer up to 1TB just to keep precious memories. Bad or good memories do not matters. But how you treat those memories and reuse it, and refine it to become more powerful experience and skills points (must read previous post).

Really hope, all the "brothers" and brothers will get a good solution and get to the bright path soon. Free up your minds, plan ahead , plan for changes, plan plan plan plan...... action action action. Like kira yamato said "first you decide, then you go through". And also think about a reason to FIGHT.


HAVE FAITH, my "brothers"!.

Everyone is special

Some how after talking to my "Brother" lee lee at mentakab today, I always think skill and talent is 2 separate things. Just like she said may be I am intelligent,but i am lazy. I also think the same, but some how i think what everyone needs is the refinement, more like playing RPG game to level up and acquire skill points.

You know what always people say you are SPECIAL?
S=strength
P=perception
E=endurance
C=charisma
I=intelligence
A=Agility
L=luck

that's something innated when you are borned. but then through intense training you should be able to change some of the above attribute. That's what fallout said. And as you go through life, pain, fights, struggles, falls, and so on, you gradually gain experience. so you level up, just like what we have in real life we call it REFINEMENT. thus you get skill point to add to different skill set like, computer, marketing, sales, PR, talk cock skill, barter and so on. To quantify things, I would say, the skill point would be largely affected by intelligence, why? because smart people learn things faster and master things faster, of course other attribute like luck and charisma and may be agility also play important roles in certain activities.

Just like my previous post, if you read about Mr. Ng, may be he has gone through many refinement and then allocated many skill point in computer skills and planning skill? who knows? but then the allocation is not done manually, is more like what kind of skill you use more gradually it get sharpen and refined.

So if you today you are going through pain, shit load of stuff, or suffering. don't fear the light is very near you. Just like samurai swords, they are the sharpest swords, but yet the swords gone through many many process, and refinement to achieve it. Same goes to human life, if you think now you are in the shittest situation, the last thing you have to do is breakthrough, once is done you will be in your greatest shape. Just like the samurai sword.

Yesterday Lesson - About planning

Yesterday when I was supporting Denso project at Bangi, suddenly IT manager Mr. Ng came in to the server room and have a short chat with me. Then we talk about VMWare, about his success case and his future plan and blah blah blah. The only thing that really enlighten me is about his planning strategy.

We all know that planning is important, just like Mr. Ng and others said if you fail to plan then you plan to fail. Is really true, even though we all know this truth , but not many of us really plan out our stuff. As time goes by, our planning are usually all inside the mind, or so call ad hoc planning which equals to no planning at all. Some people realize this truth and also following the planning method, they really do planning. But they are planning for what they are going to do. Just like we have yearly plan, quarterly plan and so on. The plan is to plan what we are going to do. But one thing Mr. Ng has really taught me is you have to plan for the change in the next 5 years.

Talking about IT perspective and technological advancement, such as CPU processor, software, and OS, they have trend, and also changes every 3 or 5 years. Due to this nature,Mr. Ng has to plan ahead what to change and how to change. As he mentions, Denso even though is a MNC, but then their budget is not big though. So he plans ahead very well. As just now discussion with my "brothers" lee lee, she told me people who really has great wisdom can plan ahead and plan for changes, and plan ahead like 3 or 5 years and forecast the change.

But I think is not that true, consider planning for changes is like advance planning, thus we have to master the basic planning first. Since many of us never really conduct basic planning, we cannot achieve the level of advance planning. As Mr. NG current age and his expertise in IT for 20 years experience, he has been practicing planning may be for at least 20 years, thus in order to achieve advance planning level is easy for him. Plan for changes is more like planning for dynamic, fluctuating demand and supplies in production. So all of us should start with some basic planning today, so that one day we can achieve the advance planning level like Mr. Ng and contribute to the orgnization and also society.